Piss of Shitty thoughts

I have felt so sick the last couple of days. I hate feeling sorry for myself, but I have days when I am dragged so far down, it is hard to keep positive. I continually remind myself that this is much better than the alternative.

Have you ever just shut your eyes, and wondered what it would be like never to open them again. I have. That's where POST comes in. PISS OFF SHITTY THOUGHTS And this saves me.

Visited my GP a few days ago. I felt worse when I left. Good news Blood pressure is good, bad news Cholesterol not so good..

So I have a challenge ahead of me to reduce my cholesterol. Bad fats ,Good Fats.

So I guess the rule is if it tastes good its bad, if it tates bad it' good.

I think I'm doomed.

If some one had asked me 10 years ago where I thought I would be today. I would never had thought I would have had any health issues. Boy, I have hit the jackpot.

So a lesson to each and every one out there. Do not put of till tomorrow what you can do today.
Because tomorrow, you may not have any choice.

PASS THE PROZAC

I am having a few bad days of late. And thanks to the invention of Prozac I am able to cope.

I just keep reminding myself of a saying 'this to will pass" not sure if it is a saying but whatever. It keeps me going from one day till the next. Knowing that whenever I am having a very bad day tomorrow WILL be better.

Not to long ago I was younger, leaner and healthier, (those were the days) I would wake up early in the morning and get everything and everyone organized, breakfast on the table for the family, housework would be done before anyone was out of bed some days, AH Yes I was eager to face a full and productive day. There were times I worked three jobs. No one could keep up with me.

NOW,

God how things have changed. I am not complaining, but it is so BLOODY unfair. My faith has been tested, not sure I pass the test either. Still have trouble excepting my fate. I mean there is so much sickness in the world, I mean if I was GOD, could I, would I, just watch all the misery and do nothing. I know I would have to fix everything make it right. No more suffering, plenty to eat for everyone. you know just give everyone an equal starting point.

I hate the fact that I struggle out of bed everyday, I had plans damn it. I guess what I want to get across through this post today is, get the most out of each day and every day, stop getting upset about little things, because believe me when I tell you if you have your health you have everything that matters. You can not know what tomorrow will bring.

I had no idea my life could be turned upside down in this way, I traveled through life without any major health worries, no one in my family did either. Then at a ripe old age of 45 this happened, out of the blue. almost 9 years later and I still can't adjust to the new me. But I am working on it as I have no choice.......

Sorry this is a shit post to day...