Sunday, 8 July 2007

PEER THROUGH MY OPEN WINDOW.

I married at a ridiculous age of 18. 36 years ago. GOD DON'T I SOUND OLD
Eight years after we married we were blessed with a beautiful baby boy He was the most beautiful baby in the nursery I'm sure everyone who saw him thought so as well. 15 hours labour, but hey’ it was all worth it. Any how needless to say that marriage did not last longer than 10 years and one son. Pretty good don't you think? After all I was only 18, what did I know. I mean would you let your daughter get married at 18.

I wouldn't recommend divorce to any one. Especially when children are involved. They are the true victims of divorce. But having said that; once you have exhausted every avenue to save a marriage, only then have you earned the right to end a marriage.

Any how BACK TO ME I spoiled my son, I guess I felt guilty, and thought I should make it up to him. You know the broken home guilt trip thingy. Then three years later along came husband no 2 and another baby girl making us a total of four.
18 mths passed and we were blessed with another healthy dark haired princess, I decided that same day to shoot the stork and close up shop as I had done my share to help populate our country.

I am here to tell everyone that you can survive motherhood. I had no idea how tough it was going to be. Nothing could have prepared me for what has happened in our lives. All the love and care and planning in the world cannot prevent some events from happening. I cannot even bring myself to tell you what they are. But believe me when I say we have survived hell. and it has changed my family. I think we are stronger now, I have learned that we can handle pretty much anything that life can throw at us.

Eight years ago I got the worse news ever. I was diagnosed with MS. I grieved for five years for the loss of my former self. I use a wheelchair now as my legs have become useless, I am a different person now, some things for the better, I see everything so differently since this has happened, what was once important in life no longer is, don't sweat the small stuff. Life is to bloody hard and most days I cope with my lot and then there days I could end it. I am luckier then some people I know, so things could be worse. The good thing is I have become less rigid in my thinking and more relaxed with every day things. The stress I had put on myself to be the perfect mother,wife, housekeeper was killing me. This was Gods way of slowing me down…
God could have got that message across to me some other way surely.

I have 3 healthy children and a saint for a husband that deserves better than me. (Poor thing) We spend all day every day together, and have done for the last 19 years. I don't think I would want it any other way.
Having said that I still enjoy my alone times, when he does the shopping etc.

We love each other as much now as we did when we first met, if not more, we laugh allot, we understand each other I believe we are a perfect match besides I don’t think any body else would put up with either one of us. We are opposites in most things especially how we want everything done so that’s makes for some interesting dialogue. I like things done today where he would rather leave what ever he can for another day. But somehow it works.

to be continued......…….if you like.

Saturday, 7 July 2007

GOODNESS GRACIOUS ME


DRUM ROLL

THANK YOU, I was not expecting this award. you truly have taken me by suprise.

I want to thank everyone that have helped me to get this far, MUM, DAD, YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE. (sniffle) To all the people in my community my friends and admirers of my work I would like you all to know that without your encouragment I would not be here today to accept this award from Paisley from WHY PAISLEY .. She is a gentle, sensitive artistic soul and this shines through in her b;og. Thank you so much Paisley.

OH and I also want WORLD PEACE.

Wednesday, 4 July 2007

FEMMES AND FELLAS


In case you missed it on 60 Minutes, this is what Andy Rooney thinks about women over 40:
60 Minutes Correspondent Andy Rooney (CBS)
As I grow in age, I value women over 40 most of all. Here are just a few reasons why: A woman over 40 will never wake you in the middle of the night and ask, "What are you thinking?" She doesn't care what you think.
If a woman over 40 doesn't want to watch the game, she doesn't sit around whining about it. She does something she wants to do, and it's usually more interesting.
Women over 40 are dignified. They seldom have a screaming match with you at the opera or in the middle of an expensive restaurant. Of course, if you deserve it, they won't hesitate to shoot you if they think they can get away with it.
Older women are generous with praise, often undeserved. They know what it's like to be unappreciated. Women get psychic as they age.
You never have to confess your sins to a woman over 40.
Once you get past a wrinkle or two, a woman over 40 is far sexier than her younger counterpart. Older women are forthright and honest. They'll tell you right off that you are a jerk if you are acting like one. You don't ever have to wonder where you stand with her.

Yes, we praise women over 40 for a multitude of reasons. Unfortunately, it's not reciprocal. For every stunning, smart, well-coiffed, hot woman over 40, there is a bald, paunchy relic in yellow pants making a fool of himself with some 22-year old waitress. Ladies, I apologize. For all those men who say, "Why buy the cow when you can get the milk for free?", here's an update for you. Nowadays 80% of women are against marriage. Why? Because women realize it's not worth buying an entire pig just to get a little sausage! Andy Rooney is a really smart guy!

Monday, 2 July 2007

THE HARDEST JOB OF ALL.

The hardest job of all is to do nothing. Its so hard to sit and watch my girls grow up and become independent.
My youngest went for her first driving lesson today. If that was not enough to handle her friend tells me as we both stood and watched her get in behind the steering wheel, that she was already planning on buying her own car and looking forward to traveling, I am not ready to let her go. were the thoughts rushing through my mind.

Letting go is so hard. Allowing them to live their lives in their own unique way. I am so excited for both my girls and at the same time sad for myself.
When they were younger I could take care of everything, solve all their problems, and I pray their problems remain small enough for me to continue to solve.

As a mum I get so worried for them, I am only relaxed when they are all at home where I know they are safe. It will soon be legal to go clubbing, drink alcohol, gamble, vote,smoke, and marry if they want, Are they ready? I would like to think they are, they wont need my permission for anything (what idiot thought that was a good idea}. Not someone who has kids that's for sure.

JUST CURIOUS